This is a start

I need to just start writing.

It’s been 3 years since I first decided to start a personal blog, and since then I’ve had so many roadblocks to just starting. I wasn’t sure what I’d write about; I didn’t know what website to put my stuff onto, what pseudonym I wanted to write under, or whether I even wanted to share so much about myself online at all.

And, regrettably, that’s why it’s taken me 3 years to publish my first entry.

I want to write because I think writing is awesome. My favourite bloggers write about their lives in such extraordinary ways, though upon closer look, they are very much human—ordinary people, like you and I. They write about seemingly mundane things: riding the subway, having brunch with friends, or just taking the scenic route home. And yet, it makes me yearn for what they have; it makes me want to live where they live, do what they do, it makes me want to Be Them.

But yet, here I am; I’m still me.

So I wonder if I can learn to write this way. To see my own life through this romantic, exciting lens, and to learn to love what I have and who I am. I wonder if I can write about my life in a way that makes me excited to go through each and every day, that pushes me to find virtue in the struggle. A way that makes me live in the moment, and take in all the little things.

I wonder if I can learn to write in a way that would make me feel alive.

And so, here I am; writing my very first blog post, hopefully with more to come.